10.06.20 marked 45 months since placing an order for custom made lawn signs. At that time, I was motivated by exhaustion from unending negativity, fear and hate ‘45’ instigated in 2016. I did not have control over the daily news or incessant conversations focusing on more of the same, but I did have control over my behavior and contribution in my community. I could let the fear and uncertainty shut me down, I could engage in the negativity and hate-filled conversations OR I c